Sunday, January 31, 2010

Amazing Baby

I got my nipple pierced I can do anything
I scrubbed a black kettle to silver I can do anything
I was told I'm going to start serving I can do anything


Thursday, January 28, 2010

Breathe In The Air

Things arise that you once knew so well, you try so hard to forget and know in your heart you are better off.

Until that one moment when you let your guard down a tiny flash of a memory darts before your eyes and it feels like the hardest thing not to follow behind it into the abyss of what you know is wrong, and bad.

It feels as if it were forever ago. My life was totally different it consisted of such different people, past times, and ideals. I'm totally excited for everything that is going to come my way but I still kind of miss the things I've had to let go to achieve what my goals are now. I know I am better off mentally, emotionally and even physically but, I am still going to slightly long for the days that have past.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010


"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
"We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets."
"I don't want to make money, I just want to be wonderful."
"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left."

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Dont let your dreams be dreams!

ONE life is all any of us has. One life to live the way we want, to do everything we want, to be who we want.

I am SOO excited to graduate, I used to be so so so nervous for what would happen after I was finished. At the same time I knew I was so over high school. This nervous state did not last long because I started imagining all the things I could do once I was finally out. I started talking to a dear friend of mine and we both expressed our desires to travel because we just want out. The both of us are working our butts off ( not really that difficult for the both of us ) to make enough money to leave as soon as possible. And once I get back I have decided I want to enroll myself into beauty school at Blanche Mcdonald ( a prestigious school in Vancouver). I am so excited for my life to actually start there are so many things I want to do and it can't come soon enough!
Honourable Mentions:
Kandee Johnson is probably one of the most inspiring people I have ever come across all I can say is thank god for youtube and the internet!
Tara I am So happy to have ever met you, were like two peas in a pod and europe is going to be truly glorious

Friday, January 22, 2010

trying to be optimistic...

So I've been eating a LOT healthier than usual although I have had minor set backs but .. well I'm human right? Although maybe these setbacks are the reason I am not seeing any success?? I don't know what the problem is but apparently eating basically like only veggies and whole grain products and working out 5-6 times a week does not make a difference.... To try and stay on the right track and to avoid the factor of negativity which I always seem to lug around with me I'm not going to complain about my life but I'm going to take the high road!

List of Accomplishments:

  1. No double chin
  2. I can run for longer than I could before
  3. I managed to go for a run in the cold weather
  4. I can now talk while I run
  5. I feel sick when I eat at work
  6. I love water more than ever
  7. My skin is glowing more than before
  8. I think I lost the outer layer weight on my stomach

Friday, January 15, 2010

becoming barbie..

Models in the late 60's and 70's we're 8% below the average weight. Now they are 28%
In concentration camps prisoners were given minimum 900 calories per day which is the minimum to stay alive. In calorie cutting diets it is expected to eat 900-1200 per day.

Today, I watched a documentary called "Becoming Barbie". It was so eye opening to see how easy it is for people to become obsessed with their weight and image. Its so scary to see the affects of what advertisments, tv shows and even barbies have on us. A lot of it is sub-conscious too. There was one girl who talked about how she became anorexic because exercising and eating healthy became a way of life for her, its all she did, it consumed all her time. She did almost nothing else which diminished many of her relationships. They did studies of girls who live on VANCOUVER ISLAND of boarding schools and private schools there 50% had an eating disorder! .... I actually know people who go to school there! Then later a friend confessed of her anorexia which she had a hard time getting over..... :(

Sunday, January 10, 2010


I can't believe I havent posted about the Dominican! To sum it all up Greece ain't happenin and I'm going to the Dominican instead! I'm so excited so so so excited! Puerto Plata here I come! One small thing is .... what does hot weather, beaches and trying to get my tan on mean? Time to lose some of this weight and become a skinny bitch! Then I asked myself, How does one become a skinny bitch? By reading the book Skinny Bitch of course! So here I am on my vegan-ish journey, trying to make my way through the world by dogding pizza ( a little hard to do while working at a god damn pizza restaurant) , sprinting past subways, and ignoring the aroma of chicken that so swiftly wafts into my room as I study ( oh chicken, how I love thee). One week has past and I'm seeing results already, feeling great and looking great! IM STOKED ON LIFE

not to mention the fact that I've been hittin' the gym pretty regularly. Hopefully this will all work out for me by the time march hits! Wish me luck... whoever may be reading lol !

Month and a Half to go , I'll be keeping a little journal of little of my achievements because .... I dont have much time :S eeks!